Thursday, April 12, 2012

Day 9

Shu is on the hunt these days. For jobs. This being the third time, the drill is familiar.

Survival Code:
1. Keep applying to jobs even if chances seem very slim; leave no stones un-turned
2. Develop new and re-kindle old networks that will be helpful with the job search
3. DO NOT let the mind cripple and lose faith in oneself, one's abilities or one's ambitions
4. Keep sane by tending to hobbies and keeping in touch with family and close friends
5. Keep healthy - eat well, sleep well and do enjoyable physical activities
6. Treat oneself occasionally with favourite food, etc
7. Avoid large social gatherings like the plague - they can be depressing
8. Resist the urge to overspend or binge on things - the 'good feeling' never lasts
9. Be a little selfless - sometimes it helps to take the focus off oneself
10. Stay positive, stay realistic, stay calm - it's going to be okay!


An interesting set of requirements seen on a job advertisement:

Candidate who will put the company above self - Kidding me? NO WAY!
Candidate who is a keen learner with an open attitude
Candidate who is looking for high exposure to different aspects of the profession
Candidate who can embrace change and drive change - o_O 
Candidate who wants to add tremendous value to the world -  o_O 
Candidate who is ready to build one of the greatest organizations with company X!  O_O 

Check out this badass at Universal Studios Singapore - The Battlestar Galactica. It's the world's tallest dueling roller coaster. The supporting (vertical) structures make it seem a little safer than other roller coaster rides. But looks can be deceiving.


Friday, April 6, 2012

New beginnings

My adventures in the Arabian peninsula are now just a dream. To me, the 2.5 years of "borrowed time" turned out to be a myriad of (mostly) positive experiences, realizations and transformations. I miss so much things about Dubai, mostly family and then the friendships of the remarkable people I considered close. I am not the biggest fan of children for obvious reasons, but I do miss my piglet and I'll miss watching him grow and change. I'll miss his mother very much too. She's always been there for me and watched over me since the beginning of my time. I feel deeply indebted for all that so a tiny part of me does not feel too good about leaving her behind.

But then, my time there was up. I have moved closer to the equator, to a tropical rain forest climate - that is Singapore. The natural environment here is incredible. Compared to a desert environment with sandstorms, extreme temperatures ranging from 10 to 50 degrees Celsius and little biodiversity, this place, with no varying seasons, uniform temperatures, ample rainfall and lots of greeeeen trees, is heaven!

Katy Kat, her other half and their little furry son, Hans have welcomed me to their home and given me a very comfortable space to stay. I'm immensely grateful for their hospitality.

My flight was pleasant although it had no entertainment whatsoever. A lot of intermittent sleep. Good food. No irritating neighbors. The only thing I found mildly amusing was a guy in front of me asking for biscuits and Chinese food, which were not in the menu and unopened canned drinks (probably to take home). I have heard so many horrific accounts from cabin crew on the different types of queer personalities they meet onboard. I sympathize people in this job especially when having to deal with demanding passengers. I try not to ask them anything so that it's one less passenger for them to worry about. Also, I find that as I get older, I meet lesser and lesser irritating people on flights. Guess I look more intimidating now. GRRRRRR.

I knew that Singapore was spotlessly clean. But when I walked into a toilet at the airport, my mind wasn't prepared  for THAT much of cleanliness. And I had the SAME emotions run through me as I had back in 2004 when I came here the first time; despair at not having the luxury of bidet showers anymore and being spooked with the auto flush feature when I bent to pick a call from my mother. On a positive note, the exit had a touch-screen device to rate the services of the cleaner in charge of the toilet and I gave her an "Excellent" remark because she did a wonderful job of impressing visitors with Singapore's cleanliness standards.

I have also done a little bit of exploring around the local community in the past two days. It feels very liberating to walk around in shorts and not feel like I'm committing an offence, because this culture is less conservative when it comes to dress sense. Incidentally, I walk more now than I used to and I realize that Singapore is quite HOT and humid! Up until a few weeks ago, the most walking I did was from my home to the parking lot and from the parking lot to my office and vice versa (and the occasional mall). My old gal, Chariotte was given to away to a lovely Omani family. A bit too late into my stay in the Middle East for this realization I suppose, but that Arab family changed so much of the close-minded and negative stereotype of Arabs that I held previously. Funny, that.

So yeah, back to what I was rattling on about. I came mentally prepared for BAD vegetarian food, so I was pleasantly surprised when I found a nice Chinese vegetarian food stall with a good variety of colourful vegetables with flavour. I have also been binging on peach green tea, with and without pearls. Shopping for toiletries was rather disappointing. They only have GIANT-sized bottles, as if they strategically corner consumers to go for bulk savings. Where's the variety and choice to change one's toiletries and try out new types often?? I really wanted a Dettol Cool shower foam, but I had to compromise and go for a different brand with an average-sized bottle because the only Dettol shower foam that came in a decent size was one for men, and thinking a little ahead, I decided against buying it. [After note: Ryuu made an interesting comment to this saying that men's shower gels did not contain any testosterone in them.]

There isn't much cultural diversity here. The people here, well, aren't too friendly outright. They like to mind their own business, which I respect and find admirable, actually. My people back home are way too interested in others and it can get very unpleasant. Thing is, I've found a lot of the people here are nice, but you would only know this if you made conversation with them, which is not often. This is a very-South Asian trait. So walking among them, one feels invisible. And while I am at it, I can't help but feel a little negative (as a foreigner) about Singlish. I understand it's something that's evolved over the years and fused itself into the culture and that it is an accepted way for locals to understand each other. But, where the English is grammatically wrong, my insides roll with horror. I do sincerely hope that, at least, the grammatically wrong parts of S(E)inglish won't brush on my usage of English while I'm here.

When my friends saw me off at the airport, one of them jokingly asked "Why, doesn't Singapore have good hairdressers?". I thought it was a good idea to get a haircut before I went there. Should have thought harder, Shu, you idiot! The woman who chopped off my hair mercilessly was having a bad day at work and she took it out on my head. Oh well. Hair always grows back.

One of the highlights of my day was going for a swim. I must be half-fish.

Looking forward to meeting several old friends in the days to come. I have not seen them in AGES!

It feels good to be unemployed for awhile. So much less stress.


Sunday, April 1, 2012

Piglet and me

My dearest little JD,

I'm going to miss you more than I imagined.

Love always,
Your Ammil


Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Internal circuits

I am now passing the phase of my life where I want to consciously categorise and stick a label on everything, including myself.

Impaired hearing, sneezes that don't manifest without some encouragement, a nose subjected to too much friction from tissues, suspicious fevers that one can't tell apart from freezing office temperatures, questioning the efficacy of age-old herbal cures while drinking them  - not great places to be, BUT,

My interest in cricket has been re-sparked by the Commonwealth Series. Of course, it has everything to do with watching the Sri Lankan team - my personal favourites - play some good cricket as a team under what is obviously good leadership. Looking forward to a good game tomorrow [Afternote: it was supposed to be day after tomorrow. I woke up very early to watch said match and was disappointed to find out I had got the days mixed up] between the Sri Lankans and the Australians! We've (watch how I take some ownership for all the hard work the team put in) won 4 out of 6 matches with the Australians in this series already. I don't see the need to prove anything more than what the numbers tell.

I have stumbled on a website with plenty of talks made by various people on various topics. All you need is to know what you want to hear about and you'll most likely find it here at www.ted.com. On a similar note, www.bookboon.com is another good one-stop place for a variety of free e-textbooks.

I heard someone talk about introverted personalities in positive light today and that's a first. I struggled with having to conform and gain acceptance in a society that favoured extroverts. It never felt right or easy being in the spot light, socialising at parties, making a fool of oneself, performing solo, hanging out with people for long periods of time or making small talk. So I grew up thinking for a very long time that there was something innately wrong with me - I even went as far as finding a little comfort in thinking of myself as 'a special child' as my mother told me quite often and never questioned it because I knew the theory would fall apart. As I out-grow the phase of desperately wanting to be accepted in society, I slowly become more comfortable with my ways and spend more time doing things the way I prefer them. There's much room for improvement, however.

Turns out introverts are wired this way and if they don't spend enough time alone with their thoughts, they'll go nuts (and start blogs)!


Monday, February 27, 2012

The LOL syndrome


"LOL" -  "laughing out loud" or "laugh out loud" -  is a very commonly used abbreviation these days. Even I struggle to limit its usage and use the term in a genuine manner for when I'm actually laughing out loud. The term has somewhat become a convenient word to replace fullstops, exclamation marks and for use as a sentence ending, even when one is not necessarily laughing out loud.

Ever so often you meet people who have clearly gone overboard and complicates the process of communication. Like this sms message I got today:

"Lol as much as am sad to say it but tomorrow am starting work again :( lol so see you tmr" [Shu: how does one use :( and lol next to each other??]

I have also met others who use the term 'lol' in very wrong context. Below are some closely-resembling examples:

My cat died lol.
I just hit a pedestrian lol.
The doc says I got 2 months to live lol.


Am I missing something here?


Thursday, February 23, 2012

PINK

I've been tech savy this week. Thanks to the great minds behind Nokia, I got a free upgrade of the operating system in my phone. This new OS favours more personalisation, it is quite user friendly, very easy on the eyes and it's got some cool new features like NFC and Microsoft Lync. The icons and backgrounds look so much prettier now, that I feel like I have a new phone suddenly. So I have spent a significant amount of time this week personalising my phone and getting new and useful applications.

I thought I'd mention this peculiar application in the blog. It's called "The Period" (read on, don't roll eyes yet). My first reaction when I saw it was "What?? That's ridiculous!", but then a wise friend said it might be useful for me. Actually, it is ideal. I have a disorder resulting in irregular cycles (the joys of being female) and my doctor had asked me to record all dates and durations of my cycle. Previously, I would record it in my diary the old fashioned way. But this application has taken record keeping to a new level. Apart from the records, the application predicts when the next expected date is, how many days left, where in the menstrual cycle I am now - these being the features useful to me. Then it also tells when I ovulate, when I should get busy if I wanted to get pregnant, days which have a higher probability of conceiving boys or girls (that, I'm skeptical) - these being the useless features to me. The developers had also given an email address for any feedback. I was thinking of telling them to include a random alert to make the user aware of: "PMS zone approaching, please try to stay away from loved ones and warn them of expected disturbances in your behaviour".

Google images was only able to provide a picture of an iphone version of it. The one in the Nokia store looks very similar. 

So the lesson to take away from all that is not to be too quick to jump into judgements and conclusions. Like this morning another friend told me that she happened to observe a couple of girls in a club reduce to tears when the David Guetta ft. Usher song "Without You" played. I was quick to judge and say with much sarcasm "Oh they must have had their menstrual cycles in sync". Later though, I thought maybe there were other reasons for their behaviour that we would not have known, like a sad farewell perhaps. 

Another interesting thing happened today. I had been expecting a card from Singapore. It was unusual for a card to take 3 weeks in the post. I had almost given it up for a lost mail when it arrived today (to my joy), in good condition AND with an explanation for the delay. The letter had a stamp on it which read;

 SAUDI POST
MISS SENT TO SAUDI ARABIA
(when it was rightly addressed to arrive in the UAE)

The way I see it, the postal service is a love or hate thing. Only a few friends I know use it. It is a hassle to go buy stamps and envelopes, write old fashioned post cards/ letters/ cards, find post boxes to drop them in, wait for weeks till the recipient receives it and then wait many more weeks for the recipient to get back to you. There is a chance your item might be lost in transit or take a longer route like what happened to my card! And all this can be avoided by embracing newer and faster advances technology like courier, email, mms, instant messaging, VOIP etc. Yet, some of us want to keep the postal service from shutting down for good. 

I'll admit, I was once crazy over this song. Heck, freaky Shu still loves it.


Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Valentine's bullies

Valentine's day has to be the worst day in the year for singles. Even a content 'single one' such as myself can crack under the overwhelming pity poured out by the 'attached ones' and the heavy commercialism surrounding this day.

I defied traditions at our office today by refusing to wear something red this year. On two previous years, I participated in this tradition and felt silly afterwards. So this year, I wanted to express my displeasure over this over-rated, highly commercially driven and misinterpreted 'Day of Love'. The result was that I had to explain to so many curious staff as to why I was not in red; which led to questions of what my special plans for today were, which led me to saying "Nothing" over and over, which led them to pour buckets of sympathy over me for not having a significant other, which began to make me feel a little confused, small and pity-worthy.

Although logic dictates that there is no reason to feel upset over not having special plans with a special someone on the fourteenth day of February, my emotions might have got the better of me today. When one does not pass socially accepted milestones at designated points in time, one becomes an outcast and a target for bullies (just as a fat green caterpillar might appeal to a hungry bird). No matter how content one is with one's pace in life, society can sometimes eat away one's contentment and slap one as an outcast. And if one is not careful enough stick with one's guts, it's easy to cripple under the pressures and lose one's self-confidence.

366 more days to enjoy some (socially accepted) leave-the-singles-alone days, before the next hoard of Valentine's day bullies come to bite me.

On a positive note, I might be back to blogging.

[Afternote: Here's a great article to complement this blog post.]


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